the 'i love you' messages have now faded from my phone's voicemail memory.
during tristeza's set tonight i wanted to ring you and plead that i need you in my life right now; that you're the only person who understands me and loves all my flaws and weaknesses as well as my strengths. i feel so weak right now; so drained. i swore so many things to myself that sunday. i swore i wouldn't cry anymore on sunday night. i honestly thought i wouldn't, but i'm human and tears come as the night creeps towards morning.