and it's just me and you;
looking at all these things."
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tonight as i approached my po box i was dreading turning the key to see what was inside. i hadn't checked my box in ages. i pulled out the yellow piece of paper from the post office with a box checked that said 'there is too much mail to fit into your box' and my heart just sank. it's dated 6/29, which is just a bit after jeremiah had said he'd mail my stuff back to me. i really don't know what to do. half of me is cheering since i finally got back records that i've been waiting to listen to since november. the other half of me is defeated; that it's really over.
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tonight i took a nice long nap and then dan came BACK over and we went to blockbuster and then safeway. then we watched a movie with my boyfriend jesse bradford in it; a movie that was so bad it was great...speedway junkie! i tried to rattle off everything that was great about this movie and i had a hard time trying: gay boys, ravers, stars everyone has forgotten about [tiffani-amber thiessen, jonathan taylor thomas, patsy kensit, darryl hannah, and the girl who plays amber on the bold and the beautiful], a drag race, guns, drugs, and lastly; the sentence: "if i could grant you one wish what would it be?" having the reply of "i'd like to learn how to give a woman an orgasm." so yes, it was awful and great. dan and i love watching those kinds of movies together. we're like the MST3K of indie B-films.
on the agenda tomorrow: try to get a job at my old temp agency [the first one not the second one], close my bank acct, pick up my mail from the post office. i've got to do that chore last so i'll actually get stuff accomplished before the tears come and go.