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Mon, Feb. 4th, 2008 01:57 pm
friends

i can't actually remember the last time i had what i would call a best girl friend. from junior high and on, i kept getting hurt over and over again by those i had given that title to, so i gave having one up altogether. instead, i chose to have groups of friends that i connected with on different levels. film and show going friends, readers, crafters, barflies, etc. there are people who overlap multiple levels and those are the ones that i feel the closest to. sometimes i am not the best at keeping in touch, but i do try to keep up with what is going on in friend's lives by reading my friend's list. outside of my friends, i find so many people fascinating, that when i found another really fascinating person, i automatically added them to my friend's list. it's become too much of a strain to keep up and make sure i know what is going on in my closest friend's lives. actually, me not keeping up with my friend's list was the straw that broke the camel's back and it resulted in one of my oldest and closest friends friend dumping me. this has really made me open my eyes.

i purged some lj friends who are definitely cool people that i like and admire, but that i don't feel like i connect with on the multiple levels aforementioned or that i have tried it with before and it never took off. i need to keep those people that i connect with on multiple levels close to me because i am going through a lot and in the meantime, i am just trying to be the best friend i can be to those people. in a lot of ways, keeping track of so many people's lives is perhaps keeping me from being closer to others. i'm sorry, but i had to do this for myself.

Current Location: work
Current Mood: sigh
Current Music: the smiths - please, please, please, let me get what i want (in my head)

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steadierfooting
steadierfooting
southernish
Mon, Feb. 4th, 2008 10:11 pm (UTC)

I know exactly how you feel. Take care of yourself. *hugs*


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roman_holiday
i wanna rock right now
Wed, Feb. 6th, 2008 02:13 am (UTC)

ugh, i know just what you mean. it's hard to keep close girl friends i think. it always feels like they're secretly out to get you! i have had so many problems over the years with that sort of thing.


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michaelpop
michaelpop
Canadian Tuxedo Optional
Wed, Feb. 6th, 2008 05:58 pm (UTC)

I know exactly what you mean. Sometimes when I get so busy that I can't keep up with LJ I get sad and feel guilty. Hopefully the purge helps you feel more connected.


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madflowr
madflowr
she speaks in song lyrics
Wed, Feb. 6th, 2008 06:03 pm (UTC)

I already do feel like I am keeping track better. It felt bad to do, but I knew it was the right thing to do. *hugzorz*


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