September 12th, 2001

aquatic, the life

"and i don't feel death; i will commit, like an old friend i've known forever..."

"and i don't fear death;
i will commit,
like an old friend i've known forever.
so come on in
take me on
no i won't stay here no longer

and if i should taste fire...
save me not,
i deserve to die..."

-tonight i will retire (damien jurado)

i don't even have any idea as to what i want to or can write about at this moment. i live in alexandria, virginia. i live less than 15 miles from the pentagon. i am in a deep state of shock. i can't believe this has happened. i feel like my problems are so trivial and insignificant.

i am so very thankful that no one that i know was in the pentagon or the world trade centers. everyone that i know's loved ones are safe and accounted for. i've been praying to a god i don't know if i believe in, asking him to help out those who need him right now. the sun is going to rise soon in washington d.c. and in new york city and i am alive to experience it. but i will be asleep. from this day on, i'm really going to try to live my life differently. i don't know how many days i have left. to have something like this happen really makes one feel mortal.

tonight what i long for is to feel jeremiah's arms around me, but as for now i'd settle for a phone call or an IM. i'm shivering. i'm going to bed.

i used to have a diaryland and this used to be there, but i decided to move all of my entries here.
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