October 24th, 2000

aquatic, the life

"we'll tell ourselves we're not the ones..."

"when we dream, we won't dream of each other. when we sing let's not sing of one another...when the phone rings, it won't be you on the line...when the phone rings, i won't be there to pick it up on the third time...we'll spend some time away and rationalize it as change. we'll tell ourselves we're not in love. we'll tell ourselves we're not the ones..." on the third time (kissing book)

that song breaks my heart time and time again. i guess that the sadness is really sinking in now about d. cos the repeat button's being pressed constantly. and his mixtape is in my stereo. and right after the cannanes show ended tonight, slowdive started blasting out of the speakers.

i used to have a diaryland and this used to be there, but i decided to move all of my entries here.
  • Current Music
    kissing book - on the third time
aquatic, the life

"you've hurt me so much...i don't know if we should even keep in touch..."

well i've got the perfect heartbreak song for today. read the above. then go to the my little brother homepage and get ready for more heartbreak. i swear, everyone should own this 7". joshua kaffer is andy kaffer's brother. andy kaffer is kissing book. um. yes. so i went to cmj this past weekend and it was lovely, but i'm still feeling pretty low underneath it all. so many nice people. so many lovely boys. but i wanted that one. *sighs* and i messaged him on aim last night when i was finally home and asked if he missed me and i got no reply. am i really that worthless to you now? or did you just not put yr away message up?
  • Current Music
    my little brother - i love dolores, (heart) very much