after the music, then we watched top secret, which was one of my childhood favourites. so much stuff must've just breezed right by me when i was a kid. there are erections aplenty. i didn't find out about what one was until i was *way* older. and sometimes i wish i'd never found out! ha!
i really like the way that skinny tie boy watches movies + listens to music. he gets all wide-eyed and on the edge of his seat when something exciting is happening. he laughs with his whole body. sometimes he'd look over at me while we watching the movie, to see if i was reacting to the film the same way that he was. searching for connection. i really like that. and to think, i never would have met him if my profile weren't on make.out.club dot com.
today i gave old crush boy (niko) a ride to school along with the tape i made him. i really wished i'd given it to him earlier. i re-taped the ending last night though. to show that i'm getting over him. i ended it with trembling blue stars "though i still want to fall into your arms". what a fantastic song. today he told me he loved hanging out with me, that i made him laugh a lot. i want a boy who i can do more than just laugh with. i want more than one emotion.
i used to have a diaryland and this used to be there, but i decided to move all of my entries here.