she speaks in song lyrics (madflowr) wrote,
she speaks in song lyrics

  • Music:

"i wanna, i wanna, i gotta be adored..."

i think part of the reason i've not been motivated at all this semester is because i don't feel special. at all. and i think that some part of me craves that.

i just feel that i put good friends ahead of myself on my list of priorities and that they should do that for me once in awhile. since school started this semester, i really don't feel like i've been at the top of anyone's list. second maybe to one person, and third or fourth to most everyone else. when i re-met paul, i felt like all that was all changing. that i was someone's top priority. he was calling me and making time to hang out with me, changing his schedule around just so he could see me. i miss being on top.

i used to have a diaryland and this used to be there, but i decided to move all of my entries here.

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