she speaks in song lyrics (madflowr) wrote,
she speaks in song lyrics

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"it's not funny like haha..."

"it's not funny like 'haha'
it's funny like 'i told you so'."

-mess with the bulls (piebald)

long day ahead. and i don't feel like being here. i'm in west builing @ mason. and the day is ticking on and on and it's still before noon. i don't know if i feel like going to class today. it's good. paul + i. are good. again. but i don't know what's going to happen. he wants something, he doesn't want something. he keeps changing what he says. i just don't know anymore. he says that he'd want me to wait for him; until he's ready. and i want to. but he also says that if i made out with someone else that he wouldn't be hurt; that he would understand. and then i tell him that i only have my eyes on him. and he says that freaks him out. to be wanted. and i can't read him like a book. i have to skip around. trying to read him is like one of those name your own adventure books. each day with him i open another page and it either jumps forward into the adventure or back to page one. i want to cheat and jump to the last page to see how it will turn out. i did that when i was a kid, so why can't i do that now?

i used to have a diaryland and this used to be there, but i decided to move all of my entries here.

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