"i'd feel like i'd never hold you again...
i'm 'fraid i'd lose ya friend...
i'd rather be with ya...
than have to talk on the phone.
yea, i'd rather be with ya...
more than i'd ever known."

-trick mammoth (sammy)

can you tell which mixtape i've been listening to lately? oh. only the one that i made for paul. a copy of it. i just can't explain what the heck went on tonight. wierd vibes. wierd night. i left the black cat with john + karyn and we walked to the metro cafe for upside down [britpop night]. i drank two sloe gin fizzes and i think i was tipsy a bit and i think i did it for all the wrong reasons. i wanted to forget; to get the wierd vibe i got from paul earlier out of my effing mind. it didn't really work. the drinks made me dance a lot with tom + a different john. i had a good time though, but underneath it felt forced. 'cos i couldn't get my mind off the fact that less than 24 hours ago paul + i had been smooching.

i used to have a diaryland and this used to be there, but i decided to move all of my entries here.