is it time for me to rise?
i've pulled up my stakes again...
is there someone who can take me in?
-rise (rainer maria)
i pulled my roots away from d. and i've moved on. he doesn't care about me anymore and he has my former feelings written down on paper; no doubt stashed away in some corner; forgotten. and maybe one day he'll pull read the words again and think fond thoughts. i'd hope that one day we could be friends and meet, but that day seems far off.
and now there is paul. and he's the most lovely boy i've met in a long time. ha! every song i wanted to quote this morning was rainer maria. paul doesn't even like them. oh well. i was just thinking that anyone who doesn't know me and reads this whole diary thing most likely thinks i am a slutty type of girl, since i really like boys, but before last night i hadn't made-out with with anyone since july.
last night was so comfortable. and enjoyable. kisses in the right places with soft lips. and timid hands. i didn't really know what would happen last night. because it was clear there was attraction there, but feelings were barely voiced beforehand. i think we're both afraid of being hurt. but i'm not scared right now. all i want right now is to take his glasses off...again.
i used to have a diaryland and this used to be there, but i decided to move all of my entries here.