she speaks in song lyrics (madflowr) wrote,
she speaks in song lyrics

"and everybody lies to me..."

13 jul 2000 - 1:33a

again, i'm completely amazed with what radiohead have created. each one of the new songs i have heard has just grabbed ahold of my heart and tugged at its' strings. the most recent live versions of 'how to disappear' are just so completely breath-taking that they um, take my breath away! recently, i've been very sad. and i try to keep my mind off the sad by taking on many meaningless tasks. and i try to keep my mind off the sad by attempting to find a new boy. all my attempts at putting together some semblance of a relationship have failed. and these are nice boys, mind you. and it's not like i want another steady. i just want to talk to boys, to meet them, to have them as friends, to go record shopping with, etc. sure, steadies are nice, but if the steady leaves, then i sort of topple over. but i've never just "dated". since the d boy, i went on "a" date, but it was really just chillin'; there was no snog action. i'd think a date would involve some type of kissing. but maybe i don't know what i am talking about. i do know i really have to stop reading old email from the ex. cos it's breaking me to pieces. reading all that old email has made me start looking at all the letters and emails i have from other exes. and reading those have made me wonder why all those boys wrote such nice words, then so nicely left me. i know they are just words, but words should count for something. then i remember that many boys are liars.

i used to have a diaryland and this used to be there, but i decided to move all of my entries here.

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