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Fri, Mar. 28th, 2003 01:27 pm
and the sun was a blur on the side of the road

honestly, there is nothing like roadtrips for thinking. i feel out of touch with a lot of you and i really don't know how to change that. i'm going to stop reaching out as much i have been, because only rarely does that reaching out pay off. often times it leaves me feeling even more lonely. i've finally realized that i can do things by myself. as proven last night, i can even go on 4+ hour roadtrips alone and feel almost completely satisfied at the end of the night. i didn't even die in a car crash!

i just commented in renee bunnysuit's journal how sometimes it feels awful knowing that the people who would go on crazy roadtrips at the drop of a hat to see your favorite bands play to 12 ppl in a coffee shop -- people you connect with, people you love, live ridiculously far away. it's not fair. so, from here on out, i am going to be doing things differently in my life. no more begging and pleading you kids to go with me. i'm sick of it. if you see a show on my shows list that you would like to accompany me to, then get in touch.

the only thing i might beg you to come to is when i start djing again, which looks like i might start doing every monday at dr. dremos. djing to no one is no fun, unless it's in my bedroom.

Current Mood: sleepy
Current Music: neu! - '72 live

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shadesofautumn
shadesofautumn
shades
Fri, Mar. 28th, 2003 11:23 am (UTC)

Believe me, I hear you and I've been where you are so many times. I hate relying on people only to have it fall through....

....and sometimes there is something so therapeutic in doing something by yourself.


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fifthbusiness
fifthbusiness
Sonia
Fri, Mar. 28th, 2003 11:24 am (UTC)

i'm going to stop reaching out as much i have been, because only rarely does that reaching out pay off. often times it leaves me feeling even more lonely.

i totally get that too. :( i think that is one of the most depressing realizations that i've ever come to.


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ex_impossibl532
esta noche
Fri, Mar. 28th, 2003 11:27 am (UTC)

when i get a new car i will be driving to dc and going to shows with you like there is no tomorrow.

just sayin'.

xoxoxox.


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mellosonic
mellosonic
hadakajin
Fri, Mar. 28th, 2003 03:02 pm (UTC)

maybe I should stay out of this, since I don't live anywhere nearby, but you'd mentioned the Son, Ambulance thing the day of the show. I'm sure there's a bunch of people who would've wanted to go to that with you, but if it's a 4 hour drive, and you mentioned it only a few hours before you left, then that probably wasn't enough advance notice for people...


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madflowr
madflowr
she speaks in song lyrics
Fri, Mar. 28th, 2003 03:13 pm (UTC)

i'd mentioned it about a month ago and no one in the area seemed interested. plus, cursive was playing last night. so, no.


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mellosonic
mellosonic
hadakajin
Fri, Mar. 28th, 2003 04:00 pm (UTC)

I just noticed that our user icons here are looking in the same direction... what are we looking at?? what lies to the right of the screen?


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madflowr
madflowr
she speaks in song lyrics
Fri, Mar. 28th, 2003 04:05 pm (UTC)

i think i see a ho with no tt's. what do you see?


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lalalaini
lalalaini
lalalaini
Fri, Mar. 28th, 2003 06:31 pm (UTC)

i see a guy in a kilt being pushed in a wheel chair by a scary clown.


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scratchtasia
scratchtasia
Endless Pajama Lark
Fri, Mar. 28th, 2003 09:52 pm (UTC)

I go to lots of shows by myself, not because I don't have any friends (or at least I'd like to think), but because I got tired of trying so hard to get people to go only to wind up going alone anyway. Now I only try for some shows (usually when there's reserved seating).


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